i need more grace than i thought

In my conversations with my brothers, I'm starting to understand my need for God and how much of a wretch I am. This is something I was certain that would never overlook but alas the jokes on me.

It hits you like a brick when you realize how selfish, impatient, grumpy and sinful we've been.

I've been reading Psalms 51. The psalm after Nathan rebuked David for the affair with Bathsheba. One of my mentors wanted me to internalize this psalm and identify with it. At first I had the audacity to think this passage had nothing to do with me. Now I'm stuck in the midst of these 19 verses. The only way out is to just own up to my sins and wait on the lord to restore the joy of my salvation.